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when i watch a anniversary episode of popular noontime show perform the final production and i imagine my self if i committed suicide and stop tweeting and some japanese and pinoy cosplayers shocked about what i do mahirap pala gawin all because of the depression strike me actually 2014 and 2018.
i watch this performance actually i feel the emotion on the production when i read line's on the production i will translate to the line's so anyone can realize
"the painful truth in this pandemic
is that many of us are lost
many of us are suddenly withdrawn
many of us are suddenly left behind
but what is more than painful is painful
is that we are not even given the opportunity
the proper to say goodbye
to our loves one's
we did not even peek at the last moment
we didn't even hug
to our grieving loved ones
six letters one word
at the time we spend
we did not
so many have yet to be released
because there is pain that interferes
so now
we sympathize together
breathe deeply
the past will be accepted
the present will be dealt with
we will be hanged in pain
but in hope clings
we will meet again
on the day of the unknown
but for now
six letters one word
PAALAM (GOODBYE) "
and i watch their performance until the end and i get cry because imagine if i committed suicide and some cosplayer i can't meet again local or foreign due i committed suicide and i see saya kun ,miko kun ,hana chan in heaven but i can't see more anime and cosplay anymore but my love one's will see crying tapat pupunta ako sa church for my thoughts about why i most be live.
now i need to have a free checkup for my meditation and find a earn for my healing.
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