how i giving more stronger on flight on depression

i just read on about mina kim at ganyan nangyayari sa akin way back 2014,2016,2017,2018 until now kahit pina check up sa mental health but nabale wala way back nov 2018 i through hindi ako planning to committed suicide on ozinefest anime figure special 2018 pero stop doing from religious program. but if hindi ko tinulungan maybe im die now but pasalamat ako is because im still alive kung hindi im didn't do new cosplay baka i was on grave 🪦 and soul nalang i didn't meet new Anime like jujutsu kaisen,solo leveling,wind breaker, Tokyo revengers etc.i back on this situation ang pinaka lalo lumalala also my depression rates is social media actually i don't want fb anymore is because some not in cosplay or anything puro toxic nalang ang issue at nailpilitan lang is because of anime convention events dahil announcement on fb than twitter/x , thread or Instagram even on issues rin masaya na ako sa twitter/x , Instagram and thread include discord even Hindi ko open yun is because no taking about issue or everything anime lahat. wala ako hate's or kung ano nangyari yan kahit unfriend or block i don't care pero sana para sa akin gusto ko mag check up on mental health because i keep hurting my self even more worse mangyari sa akin.